Today is mine and Austin's 5 year anniversary. I thought I would share our story of how we met and a little bit about us. You know how in church when you move into a new ward and the new married couples or families talk one Sunday, and they share their love story? I feel like this is my practice round. I'm so excited for that day, and dream of it often.
It was 2008, I was single for the first time in 3 years and having the time of my life. I was dating here and there and met a boy in seminary I really had grown to like. His name was Tim. We never went on an actual date, but I would go to his house after swim practice and watch movies with him or play games with his family. During that year our crushes on each other had fizzled. I had bigger plans for myself and we just were too different. It was the kind of different that just would never mesh together.
Graduation was coming quick, I was moving to New York in August so I made sure that I would make the best of my last summer in Utah. It was one summer day that I was at my friend Haylee's house, we had a sleepover and just finished breakfast. We were talking about her sophomore year, friends that had come and gone, biggest trials and regrets… what she learned from them, etc. Then the conversation shifted to this really funny boy she knew. -This was at a time when MySpace was the most popular of social networking. We went to her computer and she searched, "Austin Lund." His profile picture popped up. He was in his room, wearing this super goofy hat, just such a typical Austin picture. I laughed and I just felt this overwhelming feeling in my entire being that I just was going to be with this person. I listened to all of Haylee's funny stories about him and kinda shook off that burning in my heart.
I felt crazy. I thought, no one feels this way after looking at one picture… but I did, and lets face it, I couldn't ignore it.
AUGUST
Haylee and I went on with our summer with no "Austin Lund" in sight. August 19th I packed my things up in a Uhaul and drove across the country. I spent 6 months in New York and moved back to Utah just in time to have Christmas with my family. I was a new person, I was ready to start college, get a full time time job, and basically become an adult.
JANUARY
I started dating. A lot.
But there was one thing… none of them were "Austin Lund."
Even though I didn't know Austin at that time, I just still had that burning feeling in my heart that I needed him. At the same time I felt crazy and that no one just feels this way about a stranger… so I pushed the feelings down and continued to date.
FEBRUARY
I pushed the feeling down so far that I ended up dating a boy for a couple of months. I invited him to come to a jazz game with my family and myself. That week I had 4 wisdom teeth pulled. This boy took care of me though and he didn't care that I looked like a chipmunk. I wore my dad's jazz jacket because it was baggy enough that I could cover my cheeks if need be, and I was supporting our team. I held hands with this boy and was cuddly with him the entire first half of the game. I posted on Facebook during half time that I was happy to be home and with my family at the game. My friend, Austin Dial, commented on it and said he was there too and he really wanted to come see me now that I was back home. I text him and told him where I was sitting and he said he was on his way. I was up in the nose bleeds and I saw him turn the corner. I told my date I was going to say hi to one of my friends and that I would be right back. I walked down the stairs to meet him and there he stood. It was thee, "Austin Lund." I immediately threw my jacket over my cheeks.
I was mortified. -Aust still teases me about covering my cheeks so quickly. ahh the horror! haha.
Dial gave me a big hug and said he was happy to see me and then introduced me to his friend, "Austin Lund."
You guys, I m.e.l.t.e.d.
His smile warmed my heart like a million summer nights.
His blonde hair and blue eyes made me so weak in the knees.
I was hit with a lightning bolt.
The second half began and they went back to their seats, and went I went back to mine… I was a changed girl. Entirely.
I wasn't cuddly to my date, I refused to hold his hand, and that night when we got back to my house I broke it off with him.
"I am so sorry, but I just know I am supposed to be with someone else. It just isn't going to work for us."
APRIL
I was still single. The desert is what my dating life looked like, and I was more than content with it. I was working as a new lifeguard at the fitness center and just taking life one day at a time. I planned a night out with a couple of old friends from high school. We went cosmic bowling down at All-Star bowling lanes. I sat down by our lane and looked over to my right and I saw Tim about 3 lanes down. I forgot to mention that things with Tim and I didn't really end on a happy note, he ignored me after I 'broke it off' with him… -If you can even call it that. It was my turn to bowl, after I threw the ball I turned around and saw Tim looking at our screen that shows our names and scores. I froze, and he looked down from the screen and right at me. He smiled and walked towards me. There was no getting out of this one… he saw my name and now he sees me.
"Kim! I haven't seen you in forever. How are you? How was New York?"
"It was good, How are you?" -Trying to keep it short as much as possible.
"I'm good, do you-" He was interrupted.
"DO YOU REMEMBER ME?!" This loud voice emerged behind Tim.
There he was, in all his glory. That smile, those blue eyes, his blonde hair… got me again!
I smiled, this time not ashamed of any chubby cheeks.
"Of course I remember you. You're 'Austin Lund.' I met you at the jazz game with Dial." -and I'm madly in love with you but I can't tell you that because you will think I'm psycho.
Tim interrupting Austin, "So hey, now that you're home we should hang out sometime? Maybe I could get your number again?"
My heart hurt. I didn't want to give my number to this guy who I had nothing in common with, I wanted to give it to this absolute stranger that I knew for certain I loved. -Seems logical right?
"Yeah, sure!" -I was being nice.
Austin, pulling out his phone, "Well, while we're at it….?"
I died laughing and I may have stared at Austin, smiling, while giving my number to Tim. Eep!!
Austin was a gentlemen though and put his phone away. My heart shattered as I watched him tuck it away in his pocket.
They left and I continued bowling with my friends. I got home that night and Tim had text me some really sweet things, but I still was just heart broken. I wanted Austin. That night, I never text Tim back. The next morning I woke up at 8 to get to work for the day. On my break during my shift I checked my phone and ate lunch. I had a text message from a number that wasn't saved in my phone, I opened it and was shocked.
"Hey this is Austin Lund. I hope you don't mind, but I got your number from Tim last night."
I was weak in the knees again and this was my chance to keep this guy. I never responded to Tim, and from that moment on, it was just me and Austin. I would share our first date story, but we can save that post for another day.
I think that God had a hand in this journey. There were plenty of times where Austin could have just stayed and plenty of times where God may have gotten frustrated with the two of us that he kept putting us in each others' paths. Austin and I are incredibly different, but its always worked and we enjoy the differences. There has not been a day that has gone by that he doesn't call me beautiful. He's the most compassionate, sincere, genuine, hard working, affectionate, selfless person I have ever met in my life. He makes me laugh the hardest and love the deepest. I learn from him every day and I cannot believe its been 5 years. I can't imagine life without him and I'm grateful for him. He's my greatest blessing.
I love you, Aust. Happy 5. Here's to many more!
xo. k.