Says The Lord.

You know that spring cleaning thing? Well… that is supposed to be going on right about now, but I have this problem where when I deep clean things I get stuck looking at past memories that have been tucked away in boxes for the last 6 years. You heard it… SIX. I'm a hoarder.

Anyways… One of these boxes I came across was my graduation box. Which is kind of ironic because my mom was telling me this morning how crazy it is that its been 6 years since I've graduated. We were driving and I had a little time to ponder how much I've accomplished since then, and lessons that I've learned. I started to feel a little… Unsuccessful. Then I started to get down on myself because I don't have a college degree, and I haven't been to a University. I just have always stuck with my comfort zone. Lately, I've been learning to not only step out of it, but take leaps out of it. Change has always been a scary thing for me, but now looking back on it, it's always been an amazing thing for me… so I'm not sure why that's not sticking in my noggin- but I'm workin' on it. 

In my graduation box I found all these books (which half of them are 'oh, the places you'll go!' by Dr. Seuss."-I've kept every single one because they all have sweet messages written on the inside cover.) to continue.. I found all these books people gave me that would help me for the future. For the big world I was entering. To be an adult. To start my own life. It was MY choices, and I didn't have to ask my parents anymore if its "okay" to do certain things. I can just do them… although I still find myself asking certain things like, "Do you think I should go for a higher position?" "What do you think about this school?" "Is this how you write a check?"-- paha. I'm kidding. I've known how to write a check since 7th grade. But, I do ask them out of respect and because I care so much about their opinion, and there is a GIANT part of me that never wants to disappoint them.

I did come across this one book. "For I know the Plans I have for You, Says The Lord." It caught my eye, and I started reading and came to this page.

"Be not afraid of growing slowly; Be afraid only of standing still."

If that isn't an answer to a silent prayer from my heart, then I don't know what is. I've never stopped growing, progressing, or learning. You learn things every day and even if its small like, how to make a grilled cheese sandwich, you still learned.

I may grow slower than others, but at least I'm not standing still.

Allmylove. k.