A letter from Abbi.

In one of my posts, months ago, I talked about how all I dream of doing on here is relating to someone somewhere. To find a common ground, even if we don't know each other... like bff's or somethin.

The past week/couple of days were tough on me to say the least. I had been struggling with my education, dating, and balancing a social life in the mix of it all. So... I blogged about it. Never in a million years did I ever imagine that my words of struggle, faith, triumph, strength, fear, love, and friendship would reach this young gal.

Meet Abbi.

      

When I woke up at 4:00 a.m. this morning, I didn't think about changing a life. Honestly, I was thinking that my tube of pringles better keep me running through my entire shift at work, and if that didn't help... I would resort to apple juice. Such a go getter... jeez, I sound like I'm five. In the midst of drinking apple juice and inhaling my chips, I also thought, Definitely going to go home and sleep for an hour before I pick up my sister from school. Did that happen? No. I forgot my favorite t.v. show recorded the night before, so I had to squeeze that in before my night hike.

2:30 p.m rolls around, I got up off my couch.. re-touched the dancing hairs on my head so I wouldn't completely embarrass picking up my sister from school. My cute little sister, hops in my car and says:

"I got something for you! It's from Abbi."

"Wait.. cute, confident, dance Abbi?"

"Yeah!! I'm not sure what it is because I didn't open it."

I frantically opened the envelope.

"Here, read this to me while we drive home."

Tears welled up in my eyes as my sister began reading the kind words of a young girl that I have always looked up to. She was the girl that I envied. If I could have half the confidence she had, then I could for sure be successful. She was the girl I cheered on at all dance competitions... and I didn't care if she thought I was crazy because I thought she was crazy good at dancing. I had one moment of courage, one moment of insane bravery where I walked right up to her and told her she did amazing and that I always just watch her dance when she is on stage. (I got permission from Stac first... I couldn't possibly be that creepy big sister.)

In this letter, she wrote words of love, and gratitude. I never thought in a million years this amazing girl could look up to someone like me. This letter changed my life and gave me a bigger perspective. I love that I can help people. I love that I can relate to you. I love that I am your example. All of those things just push me to do better. It pushes me to get through school, it pushes me to fulfill church callings, it pushes me to just be me.

Abbi- Thank you. Thank you for your time. Thank you for taking time out of your day to read 'me.' Thank you for looking up to me. Thank you for the kindest, sweetest words that have ever entered my ears. This letter is already hanging up in my room and I can't help but feel like this is the start of an amazing friendship. You will never understand the magnitude of your words and how it affected my heart. You are such a gem. I love you, but seriously.

xo. like a lot.

p.s. I hope you don't mind I stole a picture from your insta.

you.are.a.doll.

p.s.s. let's go shopping together? :)